Tuesday, August 24, 2010

Blood Red Embarrassment. Literally.

My face was cherry, well blood red from such embarrassment.

'I'm so sorry'

 I had never had anything like that happen to me in my life. It has always been hard to embarrass me about something like that seeing as how my dad and brothers were always so comfortable with it growing up. There were never any rude comments, or questions about panties in the trash. My dad done most of the laundry and he never had as issue when it came to messy pants when I got home from school. In fact my eleventh grade year was spent in the nurses office waiting until my dad or mom got there to pick me up so that I could go home and clean off the blood from my knees. Literally. I learned to be fine with bleeding so much. There was nothing I could do to control it, so I just dealt with it. 

My period has changed drastically. My sister bought me a Diva Cup for Christmas and it couldn't have been a better present.  Even though for the first three days of my period I have to wear a pad AND the cup, it makes it a lot easier to handle messes. 

It's my period week. Fun. On top of it being my week to bleed like a 'stuck pig' (in the words of my sister), I have been kinda wishy washy about this new guy that I have been talking to. So I invited him over to stay the night so that we could talk and get to know one another a little more. He has been trying to get to know me and date him but I haven't had the time with work and family, so I figured I would see where the night would take us. He came to spend the night with me the first night I started my period. We stayed up all night talking about life and how things tend to work out for us. I must say it was nice to just talk.

He came back last night. We have been talking for a while, and I haven't been rushing for a relationship. We are both on the same page as far as that goes. 

We went to the room and I told him about some of the things that goes on behind closed doors. He didn't know very much about my masturbation habit nor the fact that I had toys. He then started teasing me and tickling me.  He joked about what I did with each toy, and how I done it. We started wrestling on the bed, and ended up on the floor. I pinned him down and we were kissing. Then it happened. with all of the commotion over the lat few hours I had forgotten to check my diva cup. I wasn't wearing a pad because I typically don't need one after the first couple of days and I figured it wouldn't be attractive to wear one with the plans I had for the night. He already knew I was on my period, and had no problems with it. But he wasn't ready for me to bleed all over his crotch...Yes. My diva cup had leaked and I bled on his khaki pants, right on his crotch. It was soo embarrassing. 

I wouldn't have been so shy about it had I just bled on my clothes, but I bled on him. I felt terrible.

I kept apologizing and trying to figure out what to say about something like that. I mean, My sister never taught me how to deal with that kind of situation.  I didn't think they existed. I didn't know what to do. I thought he was pissed.

After feeling like a fool and looking for the right words, he pulled his pants off and threw them at me smiling.

 'Anything to get me out of my pants, huh? All you had to do was ask.'

I started giggling and he asked me if I would put his pants, and my messy clothes in the washing machine before they stained and he couldn't get the blood out. I sighed with relief, went to the bathroom, washed off, changed clothes and then started a load of laundry at 3am. 

I went back to the room, he hugged me and told me it was ok. We laughed about it, and went on with the rest of our business.

It's definitely a night I'll never forget. 

Thursday, May 13, 2010

There be no, like Gino!

Oh Gino!

   Boy was I giddy about this toy. I own few toys, and have only had two or three g-spot orgasms so I definitely wanted one to rock my world.  When I was browsing Eden Fantasys for a product to request upon review, I couldn't really find one that I absolutely had to have. I am still new to looking so I asked my sister for advice. She helped me look through the products, and told me about curvature and texture. I told her I wanted g-spot orgasms like there was nothing else to live for. We came across Gino by Feelztoys and she said that it looked as if it would do the trick. I always listen to my sisters advice no matter what and quickly requested it for review. They kindly agreed to send it to me for this review and oh man am I glad.

     When Mr. Gino arrived I started dancing around the house anxious to try my new toy. I was babysitting for my sister while she was out of town so I decided to wait to try it at a more convenient time. I looked over the package and got a feeling for the toy. The package is awesome. It is mostly pink and has a short little description on the sides in not one, but eight different languages.

It reads:

Powerful and ultra quiet vibrator with seven wild modes. Specially designed for g-spot stimulation. Uses 2AAA batteries (not included).

               in English, Italian, French, German, Spanish, Russian, Czech, and Dutch. How cool is that?

  I requested the purple Gino, as purple is my favorite color. The purple is beautiful, and I'm not just saying that because I am biased. I am saying that because it's true. =)

This toy is 100% pure silicone, as posted on the box, and can be used with a water based lubricant. YAY for nonporous, phthalate-free toys.  He has a squishy yet firm feeling to him. There are creases along the surface of the toy for that extra textured feeling. I could slightly feel them while inside but with the vibration it doesn't add much. And near the base of the toy there is an adorable little heart which is a bonus for me

There are seven different settings. All of which feel great. I have my picky preferences, but not everyone likes what I like.

The first three are all steady vibration settings. All of which are nice for warming up as well as finishing off.
1) Low
2) Medium
3) High

But if you are like me, and love variety, you will love the awesome pulsing settings. Oh yes.

4) Strong, quick pulsing vibrations.
5) Three continuously maximizing vibes
6) One long vibration succeeded by two delicately accelerated ones.
7) One extended vibration followed by many assorted bursts of hard power.


I finally got to try it and I was as happy as a catholic school girl that got touched for the first time. The curve at the end hit my g-spot like a charm, and operating it is pretty simple.

Press the power button to turn it on. Press the button to sort through the settings, and simply hold down the power button for two seconds to turn it off whenever you wish. This is also posted clearly on the box, so it isn't hard to figure out. Easy! All controlled with one button, and it's waterproof! Yes! The battery box has a rubber ring around it which locks out the water so you can take this lovely toy anywhere with you. Just be sure that the compartment is twisted completely closed. It can be a bit difficult at times when you don't line it up perfectly, but not impossible. I always use it in the shower though and I don't have any problems as far as water goes so I give it an A+ for that!

This toy could potentially be good for anal play with precaution.  The base is not flared and the toy is fairly slender. It's approximately 1 3/8in in diameter and has 5 insertable inches, so it could get lost in the darkness if you're not careful. Know what I'm saying? However, it is silicone and can be sterilized so if you wanna share in any way, feel free! Just make sure that you clean it with a 10% bleach, 90% H2O solution.

The battery life is surprisingly good. I would expect the batteries to be dead within a couple of uses with as long as I tend to play, but Gino lasted a good while before he died. He is also a toy little noise. I can hardly hear him above the blankets, much less through the door.

Overall Gino is awesome. 'Nuff said.

Thank you Eden Fantasys for sending me this product to review. I apologize for the tardiness. =)

Tuesday, February 23, 2010

TMI Tuesday! First set!

1. For self-arousal, if you could reach any part of your body with your mouth, which part would you like to reach and why?

--My clit of course. I like to pleasure myself a little too much at times.

2. If you reached that part of your body, how often and how long would you want to stay there?
--As long as I could stand it that's for sure.

3. If the opportunity arose, what would you like to do to someone else that you have never been game to try before?
--hm. gimmie a whip!

4. You have been selected to swap one of your organs with another member of the opposite sex. What would you swap and why? Who would you choose as the organ donor?
--I wana swap brains with any man. I wanna see how they really think!

5. Overnight you have a beauty sleep and inexplicably awaken at dawn having now turned into the most beautiful person on the planet. What would you do differently for the next 24 hours?
--Fight off all the boys, and hang out with my girls! The same as I already do =P Haha.

Bonus Question: You are noticed by a talent scout and invited to star in your own x-rated movie for world wide distribution. You are asked to write the plot. Describe your movie plot in one sentence of no more than 20 words.
--Hmm <--doesn't count
         College freshie falls for her advisor. Hot steamy sex occurs in places no one would have ever imagined.

Thats the best I can do!  Thanks!

Friday, February 19, 2010


When I first started looking into college, I was on the phone a lot with my advisors. There was one day my inspirational support advisor called and was talking to me about my college credits and things of that sort. I was sitting in the room with my sister and her husband when she called and seen no need to leave the room. I was sitting on my sisters bed, on the phone, and my sister was trying to get a battery out of one of her vibrators. She very loudly called Chad to come HELP HER GET THE BATTERIES OUT OF THE STUPID VIBRATOR....

Yes. while I am on the phone with someone from the college. Wonderful. Well it got silent for a second and then I hear her burst into laughter on the other end of the phone. I was glad to know that it was all ok. I told her about my sister reviewing sex toys, because she asked, but I failed to tell her about my affiliations with process. I didn't see a need for it because it has nothing to do with college or anything like that.

A few weeks ago I let my sister use my Eden Fantasys gift card so that she would have a little extra money to spend on stuff for her awesome anniversary trip. I wasn't really concerned with her repaying me because I was kind of gifting it to her for her anniversary. Well, today my sister came across an awesome blowout sale. We were browsing through the awesome toys, and amazing prices, then agreed that she would buy me one in repayment of the gift card.

We settled on this. It's a beauty and I was excited about getting it.

I was logged into YahooIM. I looked through my online contacts to make sure that none of my college advisors were online so that I knew if it was safe to post an update about my new toy or not. I seen no one on except for my best friend and another friend that knows about my P3x (personal pleasure parties). I try to keep my personal life separate from my public life, and my public life includes college.

I was wrong.

Two seconds after I posted 'YAY! a new sex toy on the way' my financial aid advisor IM'd me and said


I turned blood red from embarrassment mixed with shock, and replied to his concerned question.

Me: 'Sorry. I didn't know you were online :( '

Him: 'hahaha It's all good'

Me: 'I really try not to post things like that when you are on..Now I am embarrassed.'

Him: 'Why'

Me:' I am so so so sorry. I don't think this email address of yours is on my messenger list. I didn't know. I didn't expect you to comment on it so now I am blood red and my sister is laughing at me telling me that I done a great job of outing myself.'

No response from him for like ten minutes

Me 'What are you doing besides embarrassing people like me?'

Him: 'Working....and reading things that make me love my job like what you posted.'

Me: 'Thanks a bundle. Am I gonna have to cut your tongue out or are you gonna keep your mouth closed about this to the rest of the advisors I work with?'

Him: 'It's our little secret, unless you cross me sometime in the future, then i'll be forced to tell the world and reveal your plan to take over the world one sex toy at a time.'

Me: 'Fair enough'

The conversation continued and I ended up telling him that I am a sex toy reviewer and that I am proud of it, I just didn't want it to interfere with my schooling.

I feel much better knowing that he is so cool about it. He also has a great sense of humor, so I feel that the next time we talk he will be teasing me about it.
I'll have to make sure that I am careful from now on. There is no telling who is hiding behind their 'invisible' option on their IM.

I laughed about this incident for nearly thirty minutes. Every time I looked at my computer, and every time I thought about it I just started grinning. This day goes down in my personal history book. It will never be forgotten. :D

Friday, February 12, 2010

Where would you like to spend your retirement?

Either on the beach, or in the mountains. I honestly think the beach is more me though.

Ask me anything

Thursday, January 28, 2010

Life Is beautiful

I have another blog. It is not a sex blog, but just a normal everyday blog. Feel free to check it out. I don't post everyday because I am doing other things, but I will try to post most of my nighly journals if I feel that it is appropriate.

Check it out here!


Saturday, January 23, 2010



Sure thing! Eden Cafe is giving away a free Lelo Mona! FREE! All you gotta do is follow the link and enter to win!

 I sure want one so this is an extra entry for me!!! YAY!

Friday, January 22, 2010

When it rains..

 I woke up a few times in the middle of the night the night before last. I had a couple of bad dreams and couldn't sleep. It was a rough night to say the least. It started raining at some point early yesterday morning. It wasn't an extremely heavy rain, but it was steady enough for me to hear inside. As I laid in my bed awake, listening, I drove myself into deep thought.

--On December 3rd my boyfriend lost the privileges of using his phone and computer. I'm not sure of what happened, but he text my best friends phone to tell me that he wasn't going to have a way to talk to me for about a month because of some school problems(I didn't have a cell phone). I was hurt of course, and I cried enough to fill up the river after a drought, but I knew that we could make it through. I talked to my sister about it, and she told me the same thing I was telling myself.

  'Now only time will tell. If this is real love, we will make it through and possibly come out with a stronger relationship. If its not, then we will fall apart in this next month and nothing will ever come of the last year we have spent convincing ourselves that it's love.'

  Thinking about that made me want to make certain that I kept everything written down so that he would know everything that was going on with me while we weren't able to talk. It made me feel better.

  So I started writing. Every night. Most mornings, and some afternoons. I wrote about everything, and everyone. I wrote stories and sent them, and described to him my sexual urges; All normal things in our relationship. If something happened, I made a mental note to tell him about it in my next email. I did not have internet connection on my laptop at all times, but when I had the chance, I would email all of the letters I had wrote on my computer throughout that previous period of time.

  This was continuous throughout the entire month of December, and the beginning of January. I moved in with my sister, and received the internet connection I felt that I constantly needed. Thsis wasn't a good thing. I stayed logged into my emails, and other applications just hoping to hear something, but I didn't. I received nothing.

I told you that, to tell you this..

 --Today I started the day off by listening to music, and thinking.Thinking what what I would be doing if I had a job, what life would be like if I was five years older, if I got a puppy what I would name it. It started raining a bit harder, and  I began to think about the way my morning would have started if I was able to actually be with my boyfriend. Let me tell you, It was pretty amazing.

  I found myself lost in this erotic fantasy, and I mean lost. I couldn't stop. I was buried in the blankets on my bed, pillows all around me, dildo in one hand, and massager in the other ,pillow between my legs and  muffled vibrations purring through my blankets.. Pleasuring myself to the thought of our bodies tangled up in one another. Skin to skin. Storming outside, cloudy.Touching. Kissing. Sucking. Nibbling. The works. It was completely satisfying. Ahh yes.

  I came out of this magnificent tranquil because my niece knocked at my door saying she wanted my bears..the ones that my bf sent me. She is obsessed with them. I of course don't care if she plays with them during the day (I sleep with them at night), but she has bad timing! Oh it was so good too! Grr. :)

  Well I got up, handed her the bears through a crack in the door, closed it, and by the time I got back in bed I had lost the drive to please myself. Somehow handing my niece a couple of stuffed bears through the door turned me off. I'll never know. :P   It happens I guess.

  Now the two stories tie in..

  I got all of my things put away and I settled back into my bed with my laptop. I then fell sad. I started thinking about how I have yet to talk to him. About how I do miss him all the time, but for the last couple of
weeks I have lost the initiative to email him like I was. I feel like I'm not trying as hard as I was before. I don't know what happened. I just stopped trying so hard. It seemed like I was trying but it wasn't getting me anywhere so now I'm barely trying at all. I feel like I'm not doing what I need to be doing so that our relationship will still be in tact when the time comes, but at the same time, I don't have much to talk about at all. I write articles, and link my blogs to him of course, but I don't write every day/night, and I'm linking the same  blog link because my blog hasn't changed, duh. It's just depressing sometimes.

   I got up and decided that things will get better, so I had an overall good day. I wrote a review (also posted on this blog), started another review and began an article for Eden Cafe, as well as took some time to look at old pics of me and how I have changed. I felt good about myself. Mostly because my sister complimented my weight loss, and I looked at myself naked in the mirror and noticed it myself. I'm pretty conceited sometimes . =P 

Thanks to the dreary rain in the early morning, my day turned out great.

Thursday, January 21, 2010

You're not so sweet!

  As this was my first sex toy, not just from Eden Fantasys, but from anywhere period, and I really didn't know what to look for in a toy, or what to expect from it. Now that I have a couple of other toys, I see how this was a great choice for first timers who have read over a review or two on the product, but not so much for more experienced users looking for a toy to  pleasure them.

   I used a water based lube with it, but a silicone based lube is also safe. It is jelly and absorbs nearly anything into the pores so wash it with warm water and a good toy cleaner. It cannot be completely sanitized so if sharing it, I highly suggest using a condom. This toy has a spiral rib design that covers it entirely, and there is a widened spoon shaped tip that is designed for g-spot stimulation and this causes a little bit more focus on the cleaning of it, but  they are larger ribs so it's not too difficult. When you are finished cleaning it, you should store it in a bag separate from your other toys.
I fell in love with this toy as soon as I got it. It was my first and it was thrilled to have it. I used it nearly every night for two weeks. I was constantly buying AAA batteries because they didn't last but a couple of sessions before they were dead. Boo. I loved the clitoral stimulator,it had pretty powerful vibrations; and then the way I could control which way the slender shaft rotated on the g-spot was a pretty neat idea too. It has three different speeds for the vibration and three for the rotation, which of course would be low, medium and high. The vibrations are nice, but the rotating piece wasn't very strong. The control pad is located on the front, at the base of the product which is nearly perfect for the 'at arms' reach you have.

  I thought I was hot shit with this baby.   I could control everything on this pretty jelly....until it quit and broke about two months after I got it. The rotating shaft quit rotating, although I didn't actually use that function that often but it was kind of disappointing because about the time I was learning my body, it quit. I tried using it, and when I applied the tiniest bit of pressure, it would stop turning, then it just quit trying all together. Beautiful? I think not!

Not long after that, the seam where the bullet for clit stimulation is located, ripped apart like it was nothing. It was a sad time for me as it was my only toy. *tear* I had taken a shower with it, seeing as how it's waterproof, for an attempted orgasm, then about the time I turned it on, and slightly pressed it in and against my clit, rrriiiiiipp. All the way down until there was only the wires and a piece of jelly hanging on. As I figured out, it's not made to thrust, and it isn't sturdy enough to do so either, but how was I to know? I quickly turned off the shower because of the revealing wires and threw it out onto the duck carpet in my niece and nephew's bathroom. Fantastic. This made my day.(complete sarcasm) I simply turned the shower back on, and done what I needed to do the old fashioned way. It was way better.

Onto more details of the $40 toy that wasn't worth the investment for me; the base is long enough for single play, but it can of course be used with a  partner. It's not made for thrusting, and from what I can tell now as an experienced user, it would only need slight movement to pleasure one so it may not be any fun for a partner. I would recommend checking into some other vibrators or something else to your likings. Just my personal opinion.

I would have taken pictures of it to post on here, but I didn't know about this review program or any of the other stuff I could have done so I just threw it away when it broke. My apologies. That was nearly a year ago so there ya have it. I'm done I think. If I missed anything, or if you need to know anything else, just comment and ask. =)

Long Distance Love

  I wrote an article on Eden Cafe about my relationship with my boyfriend and how sometimes it's hard to maintain staying sane with being so far away. I missed a few points I wanted to make, but I was overflowing with a lot of different emotions at the time of writing it so some things went unsaid. 

  Sometimes I think of what it would be like if I tried dating someone else. Someone closer, and someone who I can touch and feel. People tell me all the time it's what I should do, but I just can't bring myself to do it. I can't imagine how I would feel if my boyfriend called me to tell me he didn't want to continue our relationship because he wanted to date someone closer. I would be devastated, and I mean I would turn into a complete train wreck.  So I can't do it to him because I know that I wouldn't be happy with anyone else no matter how physically close to them I am.  I think that I might enjoy being able to touch someone, and cuddle with them in rainy weather like this, but all I would think about is the one guy who has meant so much to me this past year. The one guy who has made me happy without having to be right there with me, without buying me stuff, without having to take me out to dinner. He makes me happy without having to do anything special for me (which he would do if we were together, but I have no problem with not having it) besides being himself. It wouldn't be fair to my boyfriend, the guy I was physically with (if it happened) nor would it be fair to me. I get stressed out enough with having to deal with the craziness that's already in my life and I'm not looking to add to it.    

    When I tell people how I wish it were easier and they typically say, 'Well you are the one that chose to be in this relationship. What did you expect?' or 'You could make it easier on yourself if you weren't in the relationship to start with.'  I just don't want to hear it anymore. I have enough going on without them shooting me down even more than I already am.

    I know, I know, just don't talk about it with them. If I don't want my feelings hurt, or if I don't want to hear it, then don't say anything about it, but I don't always start the conversation. Trust me.

Saturday, January 16, 2010

Enter to win!

I want a free toy, I don't know about you!

A Valentines Day Treat!

I'm trying to win a few contests right now and every time a new one comes up, it seems like I just have to enter because I have such a depressing toy collection. I personally own a dildo vibe, and a discreet 'massager'. I have had a couple more, but they either broke, or got ate by a mouse. Yes, a mouse. I also now own a porn, which was terrible to watch, but either way I own it.  But that's all!

I need a new vibe!  I came across this awesome blog that's offering to give one away. I found it because someone said something about it on here. I just hope that I win! It would make my month. =D

Thank YOU!

You simply click the sites, follow on each, and leave a comment. Easy!

*Contest ends Feb. 1st  2010*